Posts Tagged ‘Personal’

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Geocities – My First Web Page

October 26, 2009
Just kidding.... ;-)

Just kidding.... ;-)

Heavens above!

With all the social media attention going to Geocities at the moment (it closes today after nearly 15 years – strange to think it was a pioneer back in 1995), I thought I’d have a root around and try and see if I could find my old account. I honestly wasn’t expecting to be able to.

Surprises of surprises though, I did, and I was fairly ’shocked’! I was a completely different person back then – looking back at it now, I am cringing something rotten!

The picture seems to have gone (thankfully!), but the basic text content remains the same (along with the horrible advert bar at the side). My site was last edited in 2003 (six years ago), and would have been created around that same time, so I would have been 16/17. I don’t think this was my first attempt, but it is definitely the attempt I seem to have decided to settle with. It makes you wonder how bad the other attempts were! ;)

As with most people, Geocities was my first attempt at building a website, and to be honest, I thoroughly sucked!

That said, I am VERY pleased that I had a flash of inspiration to look and see if my old account was still on there, as it was a completely unexpected reminder of how I used to be, and just how much I have grown up since then! It’s like one of those letters written to your future self, in a  weird way.

Oh, and straightacting.com is now an application on Facebook apparently… my, how times have changed! If I bothered using apps on Facebook, I am dead cert I wouldn’t get a ten these days (and certainly wouldn’t wave it around like a badge of honour heh!!). Europride at Manchester? Gosh!

What, you want to see it? Have I not stalled you long enough? Oh goodness, go on then…

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Oh, and xkcd.com have a marvellous Geocities themed webpage in honour of the closing of the Geocities site… it looks fabulous! (have a look today – 26 Oct 2009 – though… I don’t want to take images of sites I don’t own!)

BYE BYE GEOCITIES, U WOZ LOTZ OF FUN! *WAVES*

[I wish there was a midi of the funeral march that I could upload here!]

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vLog – 25 October 2009

October 25, 2009

It seems that my new phone may take nice quality images, but is absolutely awful at recording sound… gah!

Whack the sound up please folks! ;)

For those people viewing this post via RSS, please view this post on my blog directly through your browser, or visit http://vimeo.com/darkaeon ~ thanks!

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Manchester – July 2009

July 23, 2009

I have just returned from spending two days (one night) back home in Manchester  – and am feeling much better for it!

I decided to go up on a whim as a hotel room in a Travelodge was £19 for the night, and train fare was only £5.30 each way, so for those kind of prices, I thought I’d be silly not to!

A larger photoset of my journey exists on Facebook for those who have access to it.

Although Manchester was forecast heavy rain for the duration of my stay, I am VERY relieved to report that not once did a single drop of rain hit my pretty little head heh. Most of the rain came whilst I was sleeping I think.

The only thing that I didn’t like was the amount of roadworks that are going on at the moment(!). I know a lot of it is due to the Metrolink upgrade, however Deansgate was also very messy, and I can only imagine how hard it is to get around Manchester by bike/public transport at the moment. Didn’t see too many roads in the city centre that were wholly open for business heh.

As an aside, I really liked the DVD machines at Piccadilly Station – very clever idea, especially if they can get them into smaller stations with decent footfall such as Stoke-On-Trent, where they don’t (to my knowledge) have a HMV already there etc.

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When I got to Manchester, I met up with the chap who now does my old job at work and had lunch at the Soup Kitchen – they were doing a lovely lemon/lime chicken, rice and salad (all for a reasonable £4.50-ish). The hotel that I was staying at is next to our Manchester office, but even still, I wasn’t expecting to be able to see my old desk from the chuffin’ window of my room!!! heh.

I’m going to a wedding on Sunday, so went out to Next to purchase a shirt and tie, which took me ages. I can’t shop, simple as. If I go out looking for something specific, then I fail miserably to get anything. After about an hour and a half, I decided on one, and then promptly, and unexpectedly, nipped into HMV and bought 4 DVDs without question LOL!

In the evening, I met up with a fellow whom I know through twitter, Joseph, and we went for a few drinks in the Village. Fun to meet Joseph as he was one of the people who I find that I have quite a few twitter (and ‘real-life’) friends in common with, so he was like adding-in a missing link in a way. It’s a bit like Pokemon – gotta collect ‘em all heh! We stayed in Via for around 2 hours, popped into Spirit which was absolutely deserted and then finished up in Tribeca with a pitcher of Cosmopolitans – yum! Ended up with the traditional kebab on the way home, in bed for 2am and no hangover – bish-bash-bosh, job’s a good’un.

Incidentally, and speaking of twitter, I did use the service an awful lot whilst away… looking back, I think it shows just how much I was missing Greg as I was reaching out and connecting with people constantly. Didn’t know I was that high-maintenance heh!!! :P

Next morning I was up early to go see my family in Stretford. The Metrolink was especially efficient for once, taking only 8 minutes to cover the distance. Had to catch from St. Peter’s Square due to the engineering works. Very well managed I thought, and I liked the wit of the ’sorry for the inconvenience’ posters – made me giggle.

Unfortunately Stretford seems to have gone down hill quite a lot these days, and it has also garnered some bad national press in recent months due to a failing grammar school and a stabbing. I must say, when I lived there, it was a lovely place and is somewhere that I still hold dear, though walking through the re-branded Stretford Mall and seeing that around 80% of shops were unoccupied and had closed down when previously they’d had 100% occupancy, it did really hit something home.

Great to see my family, especially my niece and nephew who seem to shoot up tremendously between visits! I asked if we still had some of the old home videos of my sisters and I as kids and we managed to find some grainy old VHS copies (from 1992 and 1994) which I’ve taken back with me and will get onto DVD shortly for everyone! Some were slightly embarrassing, not least the one where our Mum forces my sister and I to perform ‘The Wizard Of Oz’ in our backyard heh. And they sometimes wonder why …? ;-)

After my visit, I dashed back into Manchester to meet Marc for lunch in Strada at Spinningfields. Back when I lived in Manchester (i.e. any time before I was 22 heh), Spinningfields was just being built, and, as Marc worked at the main office building that exists in Spinningfields, I really did get to see it grow around me. I must say, I am very impressed with the development now, it’s even bigger than I thought it would be! I think it needs (an unknown) something else too add to the attraction of the nightlife it wants, but not a cinema as there are already too many screens in Manchester I think.

I had a few hours to kill, so headed off to perhaps my favourite place in Manchester; the Museum of Science and Industry! A very pleasant 90 minutes was spent poking around the trains and planes and whatnot that they have there.

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So all in all, I had a rather hectic, but marvellous time back home. Can’t wait until Manchester Pride in a few weeks as I’ll be in the city for five days with plenty of my London friends too (and Mister Greg!) – hurrah!!

(I love the contrast of old/new - Manchester does this very well imo).

(I love the contrast of old/new - Manchester does this very well imo).

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vlog: ‘How I Came Out’

June 24, 2009

This is the story of how I ‘came out’:

For those unable to see the above vimeo clip, please click to http://vimeo.com/darkaeon to view the clip in your browser.

Despite trying my hardest, I waffled quite a bit and tried a number of different ‘takes’ before I got tired of repeating myself and went to make some lunch – this one was the best of a (very) bad bunch heh.

This clip has also been submitted for consideration as part of the below:

This year’s London Pride parade takes place on Saturday July 4th 2009 – with the theme “Come out to play”.

HOMOVISION is working with Pride to produce a number of short videos about people’s coming out stories which will be featured on the site. A selection will also be shown on the screens at Trafalgar Square on Pride Day.

So if you’ve got a coming out story to tell – whether it’s a horror story, comedy knockers or just plain inspirational  – and want to be part of this Pride project, let us know.

info@homovision.tv

http://www.homovision.tv/pride

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Vlog Update: 13th June 2009

June 13, 2009

Note to self: do try not to sound so depressed on these, especially at the start! Also, make sure that your glasses are straight, maybe try something different next time, plan the ending, and make sure that there is at least one thumbnail that is actually usable! :P

For those getting this via RSS or my e-mail subscription system, my vimeo channel can be found at http://www.vimeo.com/darkaeon

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Let The Sun Shine!

June 1, 2009

As a bit of a follow up to my earlier post, I just wanted to comment that I now seem to have acquired a nice (and consistent!) light golden-ish tan on my face, back, arms and chest!

I was also brave and took my t-shirt off whilst at St. James’ Park on my lunch hour yesterday… think that’s the first time I’ve ever done something like that in public. Hurrah for me starting to develop some (perhaps misplaced!) body confidence :)

The best thing about the recent spell of sunny weather has been that there’s been a bit of a breeze to it, keeping temperatures down to around 25 degrees Celsius in London, so it’s not been one of those heats where everyone suffers! Very pleasant! It’s only set to stick around for another day or so though, which is a pity!

(NB – I woulda posted the original ‘Hair’ version, though didn’t think you’d all dance around half as much nor want to sit through four minutes of pre-chorus song ;) )

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My first forray into ‘vlogging’

May 31, 2009

Well… you know me – I love to do geeky techy things, especially where social media is involved, and this seemed to be the natural step forward (even if people have already been doing it for years!).

I recorded it via my Nokia N95 8GB as my old eye-toy-hacked-into-a-webcam would have given a far poorer resolution. Alas the lighting is slightly off on the clip. You may also be interested to know that it was filmed perched on a loaf of bread (that’s the phone… not me…! :) )

Anyway, if you have any feedback, please do let me know. I may explore this medium further if folk think it adds some merit to things – possibly to enhance the textual content on my theatre/gig reviews (which usually take 1-2 hours to write and ‘media-up’!), and to cover most of my personal updates to the blog – i.e making them a little more human. Also, I rather like vimeo, so wanted to find a way to connect with that platform a lot more too, especially now that wordpress.com support it.

My vimeo account is accessible via http://vimeo.com/darkaeon

Oh…and next time, I promise to do it at a decent hour when I’ve had a shave and done my hair! :P

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Argh, it’s the summer!

May 30, 2009

So, it’s the summer, all the ‘beautiful people’ are out and about with their tops off, muscles out, and once again, I feel awful!

I’ve always had quite a low self-image, despite never really having a lack of attention (weird, I know). I think that I am quite a shy person, and despite occasionally being camper than a row of tents housing a boy-scout orgy (I blame the 80s music – it sets me off!); I am fundamentally very insecure in a lot of things that I do/think, especially when it comes to how I appear/come across to other people.

Today, and unusually(!), I spontaneously decided that I really wanted to buy some shorts and some new shoes to go with them, as the weather down here in London at the moment is simply heavenly (and set to last for a few months!). Shorts and I are a bit of a no-no. I don’t often do anything outside of the normal jeans and t-shirt, and have only recently started to accessorise myself again! I am very rarely seen in public without a top on, and even as a child, I always made myself shower and dress before going downstairs to spend ‘lounging around in the morning’ time with the family. I absolutely hate clothes shopping, as I am never any good at picking clothes out for myself, in the past, folk have just been out and bought them for me. I suppose that I find clothes on a rack boring and lifeless, and lack the confidence to approach a sales assistant and try items on and start experiment a little.

Anyway, cue MUCH faffing around trying to find some shorts that I actually thought looked OK and wanted to try on, and then trying to find a pair that I thought went with what I thought the pair of Converse that I bought this time last year, and hadn’t seen since, looked like (justified at the time as a purchase to go with *any* pair of shorts that I happened to buy… but in the end bought none!), I finally settled on the below (plus a new pair of shoes… just in case ;) )

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Converse purchased last year - never worn

Converse purchased last year - never worn

New shoes by 'Super Dry'

New shoes by 'Super Dry'

Going to wear the shorts tomorrow… very worried that I’ll look silly in them, or that my outfit won’t look right, but I shall give it a go!

As for the body, I think that I’m going to try and hammer the Wii Fit for a few days and see if that does anything! Although I’m a 29″ waist, I still have a BMI of around 23.5 and I really would like some definition to my stomach area (and to lose the paunch!). Granted, I am not ‘fat’, however I’m not exactly skinny either!

I seem to have gone several shades darker from the sun this week (yay), though have the usual faff of having to remember to keep my glasses off (as otherwise I’d get glasses marks, cue even more embarassment!) and my hair quiffed up. I have also taken to not wearing a watch, and to rolling my sleeves up to the top to ensure I get a tan right the way up my arm (before feeling silly, and rolling them back down again). All this, just to look ‘normal’ in the summer – argh!

At the moment though, and returning to my opening frustration, it is just really hard to look at all these people walking around with fabulous physiques, as it’s making me feel absolutely terrible! I’m sure that I’m not the only one who feels like this… surely there must be SOME other ‘normal’ shaped people out there without ripped six-packs…right?!  :)

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Thames Path – Windsor to Maidenhead

May 30, 2009

On Bank Holiday Monday just gone, I decided to go out for a walk that I’d been planning for a while; down the Thames Path between Windsor/Eton Riverside and Maidenhead.

I’d especially wanted to get a glimpse of Oakley Court, which was the setting for The Rocky Horror Show and many other Hammer House Of Horror Films.

I had no idea that the whole walk would be so beautiful! Windsor/Eton is gorgeous (if not touristy… which I guess one is to expect), and some of the villages that I encountered on the way up the path actually elicited a gasp from me when I saw them!

I managed to get some awesome photos on my Nokia N95 camera phone – please open them up to full size and let me know what you think… I think the level of detail that the lens has captured is remarkable!

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My one tip for people planning on doing this stage of the walk – consider doing it in reverse! It took me 4 trains to get back home (Maidenhead to Slough; Slough to Windsor Central; a walk across town to Windsor/Eton Riverside; a train from W/ER to Clapham Junction [you can go on to London Waterloo]; and then another train back to where I live from Clapham Jct). After completing the walk and being all hot and yukky, faffing around with additional trains is the last thing you want to do! Start at Maidenhead and work your way back down. In my opinion, Windsor also has much more to offer the weary traveller than Maidenhead does.

This has to have been one of the most gadgety walks I have been on too; I had my Nokia N95 with me, my blackberry, mp3 player and a few other bits and pieces – definitely no way that I was getting lost with 3 different GPS mapping devices. If only we’d had all of this in the Scouts! heh.

In addition to providing details of the walk below, I have also created a vimeo video of all my pictures from the walk. It’s my first one, and done late at night, and so some of the wipe effects are a little rubbish; forgive me! :)

[I reckon that Vimeo is best viewed in full screen -  to do this, click on the outward arrows icon situated next to the volume control]

I have taken the text for the suggested walk and the local history information from HERE and added some of my own pictures and comments to it. I would hasten to add that the walk probably comes in around 9 miles (signs on the path indicate 8 miles walking on the Thames Path, and I would add in a mile for walking to/from the respective stations – which is not covered in this guide).

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The rural towpath remains on the Buckinghamshire bank, with views of a film set house and Bray village before passing under Maidenhead’s Brunel bridge. There are no refreshments on the towpath between Winsor and Maidenhead except in season at Bray Lock.

WINDSOR is derived from the Anglo-Saxon ‘Wyndesore’ meaning ‘winding shore’, which probably refers to the Thames’ twisting course. The castle, begun as a fortress by William the Conqueror, is the Queen’s main home and the resting place of many past monarchs, including Henry VI. The exterior is the result of extensive restoration by Sir Jeffry Wyatville for George IV. When a massive fire swept the west end in 1992 water was pumped from the Thames and two years later stone for the restoration came by barge. The only painting destroyed was one which George III had wanted to burn almost 200 years earlier. He also gave Franz de Cleyn’s painting The Last Supper to the parish church where curate JS Stone wrote the hymn The Church’s One Foundation. The next door Guildhall, where Prince Charles married Camilla Parker Bowles in 2005, was designed by Sir Christopher Wren, who had to add extra pillars (in fact not quite touching the ceiling) because the council thought it looked unsafe.

Almost opposite is a plaque recalling HG Wells’ apprenticeship to a draper, portrayed in Kipps and The History of Mr Polly.

WINDSOR BRIDGE is at least an 800-year-old crossing point. Both road and river traffic paid tolls, and in 1736 it was possible to walk over alive for 2d while being carried in a coffin cost 6s 8d. Tolls ended in 1897 after court proceedings, but the tollkeeper’s cottage remains as part of Sir Christopher Wren’s House Hotel on the Windsor bank. The present 1822 bridge was the first arched bridge on the river. Road traffic was banned in 1970. Until Eton College’s 550th anniversary in 1990 boys were not allowed over the bridge into Windsor unless wearing a tie and jacket.

The Thames Path crosses the bridge to Eton. (The towpath continues briefly on the Windsor side, but the ferry now operates only in late July when a fun fair is on the Eton bank.)

ETON College, dominating the village, was inspired by Winchester College and founded by Henry VI. Seventy poor scholars formed the school nucleus and today there are are still 70 ‘King’s Scholars’, although most of the school consists of ‘Oppidans’ paying fees. The chapel was built in the 15th century with the intention of later adding a nave to what is really just the east end choir. Part of the uniform is a black tail coat, worn in mourning for George III. Eton’s upstream riverside is known as the Brocas after the Brocas family who gave the land to the college – Sir John de Brocas from Gascony was one of the Black Prince’s favourite knights.

Turn left down Brocas Street. Beyond the Waterman’s Arms and the Eton College boathouse there is the Brocas meadow, where the towpath joins at the ferry point and main mooring. The way is over grass with a fine view back to the castle. After the wood there is a railway bridge.

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WINDSOR GREAT WESTERN BRIDGE, carrying the Great Western Railway (GWR) branch line from Slough, was designed by Brunel and opened in 1849 just months ahead of the London and South Western Railway which was building the Black Pott’s Bridge.

After two footbridges (the first is Lower Bargeman’s Bridge) over Cuckoo Weir, the path is on an island only spoilt by the Queen Elizabeth (Windsor relief road) Bridge. On the far bank beyond the bypass is Clewer church on the Mill Stream.

CLEWER William the Conqueror attended services at St Andrew’s. Buried in the southwest corner of the churchyard (noted for its wild flowers) is Sir Daniel Gooch, GWR’s first locomotive engineer, who decided to make Swindon a railway centre. Also buried there is Nanny May (Mary Ann Hull), who looked after Queen Victoria’s children as listed on the stone. A now closed convent in nearby Hatch Lane once received prostitutes sent by William Gladstone from London for rehabilitation. (Clewer church can be reached by going up the path on the upstream side of the bypass bridge, over the bridge and down into the village. Follow the road round to the
right.)

Although the main path now cuts the corner, the Thames Path stays with the towpath. The paths are united at a bridge when the towpath leaves the island. There is a view of Eton Wick inland. Behind the trees on the far bank is Windsor Race Course and by the path there is soon a riverside seat at a bank known as Athens.

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ATHENS was an Eton College bathing spot where rules required that ‘boys who are undressed must either get at once into the water or get behind screens when boats containing ladies come in sight’.

Soon after Boveney Lock there is a last view of Windsor Castle – the upper turret and flagpole can just be seen above the trees. Soon there is Boveney church.

BOVENEY CHURCH, which has a Norman window, may have been a chapel for nearby Bolney Court, which belonged to Burnham Abbey three miles north. It is now in the care of the Friends of Friendless Churches, which has recently completed work on conserving the 15th-century weatherboarded and timber-framed tower.

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After lonely Andrew’s Boat House the river bends to give a view of substantial riverside houses at Ruddle’s Pool and then Windsor Marina. After a mile the path is level with Oakley Court, which will have been glimpsed earlier.

OAKLEY COURT was built in 1859 as a residence for an Englishman who hoped the Gothic style would make his homesick French wife happy. General de Gaulle is the most famous Frenchman to have visited. In 1950 the house was purchased by Hammer Films who used it for making St Trinian’s, Half a Sixpence and The Rocky Horror Picture Show. In 1970 the 92-bedroom mansion became a hotel.

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Just beyond Queen’s Eyot is Bray Marina on the far bank. On the towpath, by an iron cyclists’ mile post, an unmarked footpath leads inland, passing through Wallbank Grove (planted 1996) to Dorney Court.

DORNEY COURT dates from about 1440 and stands on slight high ground to avoid flooding. The house, ‘one of the finest Tudor manor houses’, has been the home of the Palmer family since 1600, and among the portraits is Sir James Palmer, Governor of the Mortlake Tapestry Works. Dorney means ‘bee island’ and honey is sold here. It is also where England’s first pineapple may have been grown and given to Charles II who visited here. The church dates from the Norman period. The house, used as
‘Syon’ in the film Lady Jane, is open on bank holidays in May (and the preceding Sun) and Sun–Fri in August; 1.30–4pm; admission charge; www.dorneycourt.co.uk.

A short distance beyond the Dorney footpath turning, the towpath passes under Summerleaze Bridge.

SUMMERLEAZE BRIDGE opened in 1996 as both a footbridge for public use and a support for a conveyor belt carrying gravel from an excavation for a 1½ mile rowing lake developed by Eton College on the left bank. The bridge is named after the contractor from nearby Maidenhead.

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Just before reaching a line of residences at Dorney Reach, where the path is well maintained, there is the beginning of Monkey Island.

MONKEY ISLAND probably means ‘monks island’ as it belonged to Merton Priory on the River Wandle (see section 2) which had a house upstream at Amerden Bank. But in 1738 the 3rd Duke of Marlborough decorated the fishing lodge ceiling with
monkeys. The island’s foundations for building had been strengthened when barges brought rubble from London after the 1666 Great Fire. The lodge has been a hotel since 1840. Edward VII and Queen Alexandra had tea on the lawn with three future sovereigns – George V, Edward VIII and George VI. H.G. Wells visited several times with Rebecca West who describes the island in her novel Return of the Soldier. The island could only be reached by boat until a footbridge was built from the right bank in 1956. The ‘Birmingham Six’ spent their first night of freedom here in secret after being released from prison in 1991.

Beyond a gate the way is through a copse and under the M4 Bridge (1961) to Amerden Bank. Soon there is Bray Lock and, after Headpile Eyot, a clear view of Bray village on the Berkshire bank. A seat is directly opposite The Waterside Inn

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BRAY is famous for the song Vicar of Bray although which vicar is uncertain. Simon Alwyn adapted to the many changes of the Reformation years but the song probably refers to the Stuart times. The church is early 14th-century and among those married there is snooker player Steve Davies. The village is noted for celebrities including Rolf Harris who came because it reminded him of his “river’s edge home in Perth”. Gerald Ratner lived at upstream Somerville (with the American wrap-around
balcony). On the Waterside Inn jetty is the warning ‘restaurant only’ in case anyone thinks it’s still The George pub rather than Michael Roux’s 3 star establishment opened in 1972. Diners have included the Duke and Duchess of York who came just
two days after announcing their separation. Journalist John MacCarthy first met friend and campaigner Jill Morrell whilst on an outing to the inn – the group made alternative arrangements when they saw the expensive menu. The inn is next to Ferry Lane but a ferry no longer runs across to the seat.

After reaching a house the path is gravelled and then metalled to pass under Maidenhead Railway Bridge.

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MAIDENHEAD RAILWAY BRIDGE, completed by Brunel in 1839, carries the Paddington-Bristol railway line and appears in Turner’s 1844 painting Rain, Steam and Speed on the GWR. These are the largest and flattest brick arches ever built and many thought they would collapse under the first train. A shout or whistle from below will echo. The bridge, widened in 1893, partly rests on Guards Club Island – the club was on the far bank.

When you come to the below bridge, you have reached Maidenhead. To leave the Thames Path, keep to the right hand side on the private road, and walk up to the bridge, turn left, and go over it.

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My experience of root canal treatment

May 21, 2009

I’ve just come back from my root canal treatment and wanted to blog my thoughts on it and to perhaps encourage anyone with any reservations with it to give it a go. I’ve taken the conscious decision not to include any images on this blog as, for me, the images are always the worst (and most unnecessary) part.

I am using Animated Teeth to get the step-by-step breakdown involved in the procedure  (I don’t know about anyone else, but I was much calmer by knowing everything including the ’science’!). NHS Choices also have some good resources on the subject

So here we go… no images, no scare tactics, simply my experience.

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Lets start at the very beginning (a very good place to start, so said Julie Andrews).

I have had a fear of dentists for many a year. My first recollection of a negative experience with dental issues was when, on my eighth birthday, I ate a chewy lolly and ripped a filling out of my mouth. As an eight year old, that was terrifying! My mother was rather scared of the dentist too I think, and so negativity towards dentistry has been with me pretty much all my life. I also have hypo-plastic teeth, which makes them weaker than most other peoples and more susceptible to problems. Common sense dictates that I really can’t afford to be scared of the dentist!

Apart from a short-lived stint a few years ago, I have always been to a dentist only in times of emergency, so it is no surprise that fear has been able to manifest throughout my young-adult life.

When I was fifteen, one morning a large slice of one of my molars simply fell out (about a quarter of the visible tooth). Of course, I have had a temporary filling on it over this time, however I have never had it properly looked at.

Getting my root canal done today was the culmination of an process that started nearly 9 years ago, and has been causing me a whole manner of problems ever since. I don’t think many people, myself included yet, realise how much of an ‘event’ this is for me.

So, enough background, now for the experience. I have taken excerpts of explanation from ‘Animated Teeth’ and then blogged my experience of it underneath. I hope that this is of use to some people, as it REALLY IS NOWHERE NEAR AS BAD AS IT’S PORTRAYED! (lots of people trying to show bravado and drum it all up in my opinion!)

DAY ONE (yesterday)

1. Numbing Up

If the tooth is dead, your dentist may not numb you. Mine was still very much alive and kicking (n.b. I now feel guilty for killing it!) and so they numbed me up. I would say that this was the worst bit of all of Day 1 as they are injecting right into the nerves around the tooth, but really just a minor niggle.

2. Gaining access to the nerve area of the tooth.

As a starting point for the process of performing your root canal treatment your dentist must first gain access to that area inside the tooth where the nerve tissue resides. This is accomplished by using a dental drill and making an access hole that extends down to the pulp chamber of the tooth. On posterior teeth this hole is made on the chewing surface of the tooth. On front teeth the access hole is made on the tooth’s backside.

In my case, this involved removing the old temporary filling, and tidying up the existing cavity. In theory, this is no worse than getting a filling, and with the anaesthetic, I didn’t feel anything really. The drill doesn’t hurt, there’s not really any pressure on the tooth, and personally I found it quite relaxing. We all fear the drill, right? Do you still fear it when you’re lying in the chair and you’re completely fine and not freaking out?

3. Cleaning the tooth out.

The next step of the root canal treatment process is for your dentist to clean out the interior of your tooth (the pulp chamber and all root canals). As we discussed previously, this cleaning process removes any bacteria, toxins, nerve tissue, and related debris that are harbored inside your tooth.

For the most part the cleaning process is accomplished by way of using “root canal files” and copious irrigation. Root canal files look like straight pins but on closer inspection you would find that their surface is rough, not smooth. These instruments literally are files and are used as such. Your dentist will work a series of root canal files, each of increasing diameter, up and down in your tooth while simultaneously using a twisting motion. This action will scrape and scrub the sides of the tooth’s root canal(s), thus cleaning it out.

As an additional part of the cleaning process, your dentist will wash your tooth out periodically (“irrigate” the tooth) so to help flush away any debris that is present. Traditionally, a number of different solutions have been used for this purpose. Now day’s, sodium hypochlorite (bleach, Clorox) is commonly used. An added benefit of bleach is that it is a disinfectant.

The goal is for your dentist to clean the entire length of the tooth’s root canal(s), but not beyond. As a means of determining the length of a canal your dentist may place a root canal file in your tooth and then take an x-ray. Once developed the x-ray picture will reveal if the file extends the full length of the canal or not. Alternatively, your dentist may have an electronic device that can make this same determination when it is touched to a file that has been positioned in a canal.

Traditionally the filing action of root canal files has been created by way of the dentist manipulating them with their fingers. There are, however, special dental drills (dental drills are called “handpieces”) which can hold and twist these files, and your dentist may choose to use one. As a variation on this same theme, there is yet another type of dental handpiece that produces a cleaning motion by way of holding a root canal file and vibrating it vigorously.

Granted, this bit sounds gross, and in a way, it is kinda, but again, definitely not as bad as it sounds!

YES, you will ‘feel’ some friction inside your mouth, YES, it does feel a little weird, though I wouldn’t go as far as to say unpleasant, however IT DOES NOT HURT! It does seem a little repetitive, about 15 minutes of my 30 minute appointment was spent doing at this. It is important, however, for the area to be clean. If not, the root canal will most certainly fail due to the presence of bacteria, and you will have just spent a whole lot of money and time on nothing. 15 minutes of dental grinning and bearing it is worth it if it means avoiding extraction…right?

At this point, my thirty minutes was up. My dentist X-ray-ed progress and put a temporary filling onto the tooth and told me to make another thirty minute appointment. Mine had to be made for the next day as my dentist is on vacation next week, however a dentist will typically ask you to return in a week to ensure that the area has remained bacteria free.

Day Two (this afternoon; about 90 minutes ago).

I went back today and there was not really any kerfuffle, straight in to the surgery, the usual how do you dos and nervous jokes / checks for surgery staff sobriety, and then right into the dental surgery.

This time, there was no numbing up (which, at the time, scared me witless!). Having done everything now, and looking back, it really wasn’t necessary and it is remarkable how much a tooth can take without feeling pain (plus the fact that your tooth is now dead…of course!).

Removing the temporary filling was a bit ‘yuk’ and I was still rather scared at this point. Personally, this stemmed from my experiences as a child with the extraction of some rather stubborn hypo-plastic teeth, and in theory was no worse than when they removed my old temporary filling the prior day. The difference was that she tried to pull this one out as opposed to drilling it out as she had done the day previously (presumably so as not to undo the previous days hard work!).

4) Placing the root canal filling material.

Once the tooth has been thoroughly cleaned your dentist can fill in and seal up its interior by way of placing root canal filling material. Sometimes a dentist will want to place the filling material the same day that they have cleaned the tooth out. Other times a dentist might feel that it is best to wait about a week before completing the root canal process. In the latter case your dentist will place a temporary filling in your tooth so to keep contaminates out during the time period between your appointments.

What root canal filling material is used?

The most common root canal filling material being used by dentists now days is a rubber compound called gutta percha. Guttapercha comes in preformed cones that are sized to match the files which have been used to clean out the inside of the tooth.

A root canal sealer (a paste) is usually used in conjunction with gutta percha cones. It is either applied to the cone’s surface before the cone is placed into the tooth’s root canal, or else applied inside the root canal itself before the gutta percha cone is positioned. Sometimes several cones of gutta percha need to be placed before the interior of the tooth has been filled adequately.

At times a dentist will warm the gutta percha cones (either before or after they are placed into the tooth) so they become softened. This allows the gutta percha to more closely adapt to the precise shape of the interior of the tooth.

As an alternative to the use of preformed cones, sometimes a dentist will place the gutta percha via the use of a gutta percha “gun.” This apparatus is somewhat similar to a hot glue gun. It warms a tube of gutta percha so the material is very soft. The gutta percha is then squeezed out into the tooth.

After your dentist has finished the filling and sealing aspect of the root canal process they will place a filling in the access hole they created at the beginning of your treatment. The individual steps of performing the root canal treatment have now been completed.

My dentist used the ‘gun’ to fill the root canal with the gutta percha which wasn’t particularly unpleasant and I didn’t really feel anything.

I am also due to have a crown placed over my tooth (which is fairly common I believe) due to the fact that my tooth is now rather brittle following treatment (as effectively, you have killed off the tooth and the supply of nutrients to it).

Placing a dental crown on a tooth that has had root canal treatment.

Crowns are dental restorations that cup over the portion of a tooth that lies above the gum line. People sometimes refer to dental crowns as “caps.” Dental crowns can either be gold or else have a porcelain surface so they look white like a tooth’s neighboring teeth.

A dentist will use a dental crown as a means of improving the appearance of a tooth, restoring a broken tooth to its original shape, and/or strengthening a tooth. Additionally, and very importantly, dental crowns create an excellent seal over a tooth. By this we mean that a crown cemented in place provides a barrier that is helpful in preventing bacteria and contaminates from seeping back into those inner aspects of a tooth where the root canal treatment has been performed. After a tooth has had its root canal treatment completed, any or all of these qualities which a crown can provide may be needed.

What steps are needed to make a dental crown?

Before a dental crown can be placed the tooth must first be trimmed so it is tapered in shape. This tapered aspect of the tooth will extend up into the dental crown’s center and is a very important factor in the crown’s stability. After the needed shape has been achieved your dentist will take an impression of the tooth, which in turn is sent to a dental laboratory which will create the crown. Once the dental lab has completed your crown your dentist will cement it in place.

Being completely honest, the worst part of day two was the awful cast that they put in your mouth in order to take an imprint of the area. It is like biting into a really sticky treacle toffee pudding and then, after a minute or so, being asked to try and open your mouth! Due to the sweet incident that I mentioned at the start of this post, I  really really was worried! Perhaps this won’t rub others up the way it rubbed me up; I think my experience was mainly based on the prior incident and the hyperbolic fear that I’ve had of sticky foods since! That, and the fact that I have not eaten on that side of my mouth for nigh on nine years! Needless to say, I shouldn’t have been worried and it was all fine in the end (though typically I had to do it twice… UGH!).

So, that’s me.

I felt no pain throughout the process, have not had any adverse effects to treatment and despite being a huge scaredy cat, I am very very proud of myself. I feel that I have broken through several of my personal barriers and now have a positive image of dentistry as a whole.

I’m due back in two weeks to get my crown (and I pray that it’s not going to be made by Elizabeth Duke [who do Argos jewellery] heh!), and I’m sure that it’ll all go well. It’s only a twenty minute appointment, and it’s custom made, so should fit nicely. I’ve gone for a gold one as it’s right at the back of my mouth; plus it’s more sturdy than a ceramic white one, which would be unsuitable for a molar.

I hope that this helps anyone who needs root canal and is worried about it. Believe me, I’ve been there and thought all sorts for the last nine years, however with a little bit of research (well, I am very geeky!) and skirting a little too closely to a near-life-threatening dental infection, I have come to learn that there are far worse things in life to fear than root canal treatment.

Of course, there will always be people who have bad experiences of root canal treatment. It’s a fact of life and obviously dependant on a whole host of variables. However, in the same vein, I worry that if I go to the supermarket that I may slip on a wet floor… does that stop me from going? At absolute worst case scenario, if something goes wrong, you’re already in good hands with the one person in the world who is able to help you; your dentist! (or maybe his/her friendly dental friend if (s)he’s the problem! :P )

Happy to answer any questions on my experience that anyone has via the comments section too – though bear in mind I’m a 23 year old lad who works in accounting… so go easy on me! :P If you have a dentist, you may also wish to try and see if they can sit down with you and talk you through it first before commencing treatment.

Good Luck!